“What I Remember (28)” – Nayana Nair

As I grew up, whom I hate changed constantly, it changed more frequently than my dream for future roles. Maybe that’s why I was so particular about what I hate and I did it with fervor for the first few years. But as time went on that hatred turned into just another silence – myContinue reading ““What I Remember (28)” – Nayana Nair”

“appetite” – Nayana Nair

god, don’t give me the ideal.i have lived here too long.now i can’t seem to loveanyone who is not a bit mean,who doesn’t bite back. i seem to only have the appetitefor unsure feelings.i can only tolerate to hugsomething that is breaking,a breaking that nothing can stop or change. and on the nights when iContinue reading ““appetite” – Nayana Nair”

“The Dying Voices of my Angels” – Nayana Nair

Hold this,whatever this is. Hold thistill I find a way to hide it, get rid of it,or kill it. They say I will die the momentI set the monster in me ablaze.But this is the reasonwarnings no longer work on me. This is why I cannot live the way I want. This is why ‘whatContinue reading ““The Dying Voices of my Angels” – Nayana Nair”

The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 2)” – Nayana Nair

#about the street where we won’t meet There is a street in my mind, where an often underappreciated singer sings about a love that stands just across the street. Forever they stand there, one trying make up combinations of words, variations of beautiful verses – not to win her heart, but to beg the worldContinue reading “The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 2)” – Nayana Nair”

“Calling” – Nayana Nair

my heart-i wish for its sake that i don’t make it through this sadness.for its sake i don’t want to forget nor forgive.anyway, the next love will just be the same story with new actors.except me.me-like always i would give myself upfor lives of those who are better than meand put my heart on aContinue reading ““Calling” – Nayana Nair”

“Save Yourself” – Nayana Nair

when i looked into youi saw all the stories, all the words, all the songs,all the things that make love appearmore noble than it is. * and though i wanted to mock it,to ridicule your hopes,to tell you sad tragic talesthat would make break your heart,make you see clearer.but I couldn’t. * so, take yourContinue reading ““Save Yourself” – Nayana Nair”

“Holding onto you” – Nayana Nair

As I use your ideals and words as the dressing to the greens that I hate, that I find hard to chew, I try to make myself understand you, convince myself that I am in wrong and I just know it yet. I remind myself that this time I can’t get it wrong, that thisContinue reading ““Holding onto you” – Nayana Nair”

“Far from Ideal” – Nayana Nair

I cannot ask you why your mind is so twisted.I cannot ask why you are not fair.Maybe your situation didn’t allow you to be idealand that’s why you don’t care.So I will stop now.I will stop asking questions that you need not answerbecause there is a lot more to us, a lot that we haveContinue reading ““Far from Ideal” – Nayana Nair”

“Questions on Eternity” – Nayana Nair

The winter rains have found me again but only without you. They ask me of I still believe in eternity and I choose not to answer because I am living in one, even if it not the one I wanted. Your sweet face and words, that are no longer yours, is the only analgesic sleepContinue reading ““Questions on Eternity” – Nayana Nair”