“why am i hurt by your hopes?” – Nayana Nair

i thought…i wanted…i am always looking for…i am nothing without… must i fill these sentences?is it compulsoryto tell you where it hurts and why? the pencil bends and breaksin my hand, but my voice won’t crack.i think a bit of my cruelty shows through everything that i do. “have you ever wanted to be aContinue reading ““why am i hurt by your hopes?” – Nayana Nair”

“a proper life” – Nayana Nair

the metal melts on my tongue.this must be the fever that everyone warned me against.now i will never know how to die properly. i used up every drop i could find on this planetto make the broken trees in me grow.and there are so many, so many skeletons with stunted growth. i read we needContinue reading ““a proper life” – Nayana Nair”

“replacing your name with bruises” – Nayana Nair

My love for you is nothing special.We are not the only oneswhose life is turned upside down by the sheer force of our heart.But would we have known what our hearts are capable of if we didn’t see it for ourselves.If we didn’t fail, would we have known,that the ending we took for grantedwas notContinue reading ““replacing your name with bruises” – Nayana Nair”

“Backseat” – Nayana Nair

we get onto the carthat we wish was stoleni look at her (not my lover, yet),at him (my friend – we share the same passion of finding new things to be disappointed about),i look at the the small bags we have packedand realize that this is far too less to start a lifei count themContinue reading ““Backseat” – Nayana Nair”

“let me hold you close” – Nayana Nair

my heaven would have flowers in blue,a storm of sunshine,a road that runs like the soft songthat you once made me hear,a sparrow that never stays still. obviously i do not know what it would be liketo live in such a heaven.whether i would really be at peace there.but through the walls of stone thatContinue reading ““let me hold you close” – Nayana Nair”

“Oscillate” – Nayana Nair

i don’t want to move on from you,even though you are not what i want anymore.i can’t because i fearthat i might start to love you again tomorrow.tomorrow – when it is already too late to take back words.

“Childhood Photo” – Nayana Nair

i do not want to be a childwho thinks that the world is this windowwhere i wait for you to return.but i am. and you are also the one who has promised to never return.but you have made many promisesand you have broken so many of it.i guess i am counting on youto stay trueContinue reading ““Childhood Photo” – Nayana Nair”

“On the saddest cloud” – Nayana Nair

Even when I insisted that I am fine without relying on you. Even when I tried to keep only my best version in your eyes.When I said I can solve my problems and if I can’t, I will learn to live with them; to never trouble yourself with what I suffer or how I suffer.Continue reading ““On the saddest cloud” – Nayana Nair”

“Not Much” – Nayana Nair

I am tempted to walk into the night and look for you who has always stood on the other side of my fear, waiting for me everyday, carrying a flower of hundred petals petals that wither one by one like the clock that marks days not hours, days that otherwise would have been too longContinue reading ““Not Much” – Nayana Nair”

“Turn Your Face to Mine” – Nayana Nair

The light I can always return to- that’s who you are. The darkness I can always sleep in- that’s who you are. An amphibian who moves away from what it will always seek sooner or later, who seeks two things (or too many things) at once; dancing with and writhing in not one but twoContinue reading ““Turn Your Face to Mine” – Nayana Nair”