“Even when things are right” – Nayana Nair

“The sky is your canvas”,the book to all ailments said,“there is a joy in filling it up with life.”But as I finished my 157th sketch,as I finished my 300th one,as I finished the one with no count attached(the one I called “the limits that were stronger than me”),as I write over all that I hadContinue reading ““Even when things are right” – Nayana Nair”

“Eventual Fall” – Nayana Nair

She just laughed and said“you are not really intelligent,you know that right?”as she packed her bag,making space for her only notebook, with difficulty.I wonder if she really needs all those the things.She is not a careful person,I know that because her list of priorities is horizontal-everything is important, everything is equally dispensable.I hear a songContinue reading ““Eventual Fall” – Nayana Nair”

“your hesitations haunt me” – Nayana Nair

there was a gap of few secondsthat felt like hours which you took to give the answerthat i expected for us – the answer that maybe only i would love. but the seconds, that you cannot answer for,have gone away with our comfortable warmth. why it is that the smallest thingthat makes me question yourContinue reading ““your hesitations haunt me” – Nayana Nair”

“Aftermath” – Nayana Nair

Like me, probably many have tried their bestto set their limits,have learned how to stop before learning how to move.We recite story of forgiveness, of patience, of eternal undying loveto our children at night.and when they fall asleepwe recite these stories to ourselves,so that we may not forget them.I remember all the proofs, every newsContinue reading ““Aftermath” – Nayana Nair”

“No Room” – Nayana Nair

I wanted to be adored unconditionally, cared for without limits. In that dream there only existed me and this love. There was no room for any other mortal human, no room for weakness except mine. There was no room for you.

“Keep You Here” – Nayana Nair

Even a harmless silence on your part brings me down to tears. I act in pathetic way trying to get you back, trying to buy your love sometime using sympathy, sometimes throwing tantrums, sometimes by changing myself, by changing you, at times pretending that I am done with you hoping that you try to stopContinue reading ““Keep You Here” – Nayana Nair”