“I am not mistaken. I know it doesn’t hurt you.” – Nayana Nair

I wish for once to be unstable enough,to lose it for once,to kill every part of me that wants to take your nameevery minute of the day,to throw away this shit that you haveengraved me into-into your bigger plans, into your list of exes,into the list of girls who would never be good enough forContinue reading ““I am not mistaken. I know it doesn’t hurt you.” – Nayana Nair”

“Words that I must not forget, but I will” – Nayana Nair

A stranger told me that I am capable of living better,if only I throw away my thoughts and assumptionsabout what I deserve and what I should not want. The sun tiptoed around mestealing a bit of my shadow for every minutethat I stood at the door created by these words.But I didn’t have the courageContinue reading ““Words that I must not forget, but I will” – Nayana Nair”

“We are here” – Nayana Nair

Do you remember the day when we sat on the edge of our own growing hills of delusions and reached out our hands to feel something real.But even when you dissolved as I dissolved,for a minute my hands were not empty.So even if we can’t offer anything real to each otherremember that you are hereContinue reading ““We are here” – Nayana Nair”

“Keep me inside” – Nayana Nair

I can help you count everything you have. These objects have no meaning to me but I know something about life even if I don’t know everything. I know that your hands will stop shaking only if they keep counting, only when you have confirmed that you have not become poorer that you were aContinue reading ““Keep me inside” – Nayana Nair”

“White Eternity” – Nayana Nair

The gentle snow, my longing eyes, your beautiful smile- all against the landscape lost in eternal white. All these are no longer my precious memory of my everlasting love. I do not remember when you became this person who capable to such harm and such deceit. It is a shame that the you from longContinue reading ““White Eternity” – Nayana Nair”

“The Usual” – Nayana Nair

Sure I don’t feel hollow for the every minute we don’t speak. Sure I don’t wait for your messages when I am with friends. And I don’t feel weak even when your anger breaks my back and your love breaks my heart. You told me something was wrong with me and this is not howContinue reading ““The Usual” – Nayana Nair”

“Fine and Minute” – Nayana Nair

I thought I am getting better when I found a little more space in me for life than what I thought I had. When I stopped trying to hide it from my own eyes and let small birds perch on its rusted edges all long as they please. But when they fly away, their voicesContinue reading ““Fine and Minute” – Nayana Nair”

“Step into the memory” – Nayana Nair

I sing them a song in the voice that may soothe their hearts but fills me with feelings which are very similar to words like choke, suffocation and breathlessness. Though you might not think twice about it, I know what I have done. I have walked into the prison that my life was. But IContinue reading ““Step into the memory” – Nayana Nair”

“Footsteps we left behind” – Nayana Nair

How unaware we are of the dreaded future, how close it lurks. And how our tragedies step over out footsteps that we left behind when we tried to flee it. How in the most unsuspicious moment it will grab us, till we know of nothing but pain. How beautiful is each minute in which IContinue reading ““Footsteps we left behind” – Nayana Nair”