“Better Understanding” – Nayana Nair

Her fingers brushed past my skin, in a hurry to avoid what I am. As if she knew what to avoid, what not to remind, what must not be spoken – for the love to remain. Only after I learnt to let my footsteps be taken by the waves, only after taking myself out ofContinue reading ““Better Understanding” – Nayana Nair”

“Escaping My End” – Nayana Nair

I try to take out this poison of my thoughts drop by drop from my blood. My blood, that doesn’t want to be red. My thoughts, that don’t want to be rational. My pain, that doesn’t want to dull. And the more papers I fill, the more I am convinced there is no other wayContinue reading ““Escaping My End” – Nayana Nair”

“Remain the Same” – Nayana Nair

With every step that I take towards you, a part of me crumbles down to dust. Sometimes it is my smile, sometimes it is my fear. And yet when I am so close to you, when I have proved my love for you, I cannot ask you to do the same. I fear when youContinue reading ““Remain the Same” – Nayana Nair”

“Leave my heart behind” – Nayana Nair

I would welcome you into these arms to cry out your grief, however small. If only I could leave my bitter heart behind that only wants to be consoled and never wants to care for anyone else. That only looks at the world to look for a face who would take the blame for whatContinue reading ““Leave my heart behind” – Nayana Nair”

“Eventually” – Nayana Nair

This jail, that I could not break out of, it had bars made of petals, ceilings lighted with memories and under my feet the hearts of people beating only by my love (or so I wanted to believe). It was the fragile nature of this confinement that made my escape impossible. And even though IContinue reading ““Eventually” – Nayana Nair”

“Spring” – Nayana Nair

I make some space on my cluttered desk for my head to rest its worries. And I find a string of light as a keepsake to take with me when I’m buried. What else am I going to miss? There are so many things I miss in life already. But I can’t make my heartContinue reading ““Spring” – Nayana Nair”

“New Scarf” – Nayana Nair

What really happens when I untangle my lies from my heart? Could my heart bear the harshness of cold glance? Could my fingers really stop knitting a new scarf of falsity? There are better questions out there that cannot touch or hurt me. There are stories where God has planted my struggles in life ofContinue reading ““New Scarf” – Nayana Nair”

“Great Escape” – Nayana

Even on this side of the mirror, in the world of shining surfaces and sharp and dissolving images, I have found myself looking for clues of this fabricated world; of trying to look for a secret trapdoor and hidden rooms, for a way out of here. Not thinking even once what it meant to beContinue reading ““Great Escape” – Nayana”