“News of my new love and loveless life” – Nayana Nair

DRAWING THE STARS WRONGall my hopes, now in your hands,feel like signs of trouble.i liked it on paper, the broken star in red ink,but not on my sky.can i undo my steps to you?will my heart break even if you leave my skin? STRIPPING YOU OF FLESHbefore i turn away from youthere are things thatContinue reading ““News of my new love and loveless life” – Nayana Nair”

“she must have been as lovely as you once were” – Nayana Nair

i happened to find a picture of yoursa blue ocean engulfing two shadows it must have killed youto have come back alone to sit and imagine what she could lived likeif you were the one lost and buried in the sea even though you are wretched and she is gonebut it is because you heldContinue reading ““she must have been as lovely as you once were” – Nayana Nair”

“Blue Rant” – Nayana Nair

I have heard many saythat blue is saddest color.But what I find more sad ishow almost everyone I knowknows how to imagine/recall a sadnessat the mention of this color. I imagine this-all of us,millions of us standing in one huge roomand someone mentioning this color,this harmless color. I imagine our collective sadness, our collective agony.IContinue reading ““Blue Rant” – Nayana Nair”

“Remaining Life” – Nayana Nair

Hand me back my fear. Remove all signs of caution. Anyway, I am dying slowly. I don’t want to know more. I don’t want to know better. Come into my mind. Here there is no better. There are only picture frames that do not break even when they have lost the images they lived for.Continue reading ““Remaining Life” – Nayana Nair”

“Last Dream” – Nayana Nair

Last night I wanted to dream of you but I couldn’t. The picture of you that I had in my mind was that of the smile that was never yours, just a front for the photographs that you never wanted to be taken. *** And all I could remember about you was how you wouldContinue reading ““Last Dream” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember(7)” – Nayana Nair

I have got something against most words and most sentences that proclaim that everything is achievable, that dreams come true, that life is perfect picture if you want it to, that everything is in our hands, and happiness is ours if we have to courage to step out of the shadows of our fear. BecauseContinue reading ““What I Remember(7)” – Nayana Nair”

“Lies I tell myself everyday” – Nayana Nair

I tell myself again and again what it is that I really want as I force myself to sit there and listen to every word that diminishes the efforts I have put in my dream. It makes me feel strong and pathetic at the same time, that my wanting too little could also be somethingContinue reading ““Lies I tell myself everyday” – Nayana Nair”

“Glossy Paper” – Nayana Nair

I had too many magazines of glossy paper with pictures of places better than where I live. I always bought the one showing better lives. (what can I possible do or dream with knowing the worse ones) I would like to say that I remember each beach I saw, that I remember the colors IContinue reading ““Glossy Paper” – Nayana Nair”

“Easy” – Nayana Nair

I am an easy person for if you really care for me and do something for me that my distrusting mind cannot make sense of for even once in your life and I would end up thinking that I somehow need to look out for you forever. So, you surely understand why I need toContinue reading ““Easy” – Nayana Nair”

“All the Time” – Nayana Nair

Some part of me is lighted up today in the light that is most probably your doing. And when the light hits the less cared for parts of me contrary to the expectations and images of decay that ate me away and the dust that filled me up, what I see is an empty expanse.Continue reading ““All the Time” – Nayana Nair”