“Now what?” – Nayana Nair

For a change I made breakfast for oneand didn’t cry over it.I didn’t turn back as he packed his favorite partsof this heavy life with me.He didn’t ask me about the things I have hidden away.I felt a bitter thankfulnessthat my memories are mine to keep,that my beautiful moments have been erased from his heart,thatContinue reading ““Now what?” – Nayana Nair”

“Creature of Claw” – Nayana Nair

How long should I bleedfor the one who holds the knife. I pluck another flower of kindnessto appease the one who won’t even smile for me.He looks at it and tells me the tested foolproof waysto kill this useless plant that grows in meand cracks his shield. He tells me he will love me moreifContinue reading ““Creature of Claw” – Nayana Nair”

“hope is a bird with nine lives and slow deaths” – Nayana Nair

Now that we are an year apart.Now that everyone has been talking aboutnew beginnings and second chances,I let myself be myself,let myself be swayedat the hope, at the thought of the ONE. But being myselfalso means to be keep my heart broken.It means to leave every crowded roomto find the corridors where I can beContinue reading ““hope is a bird with nine lives and slow deaths” – Nayana Nair”

“Dissociate” – Nayana Nair

my other headbleeds and falls offas does my bloody knife i can no longer call myself a victim of lifenow that my sin is set in stone few more hours for the sun to risefew more hours i must bear the company of my facein few more hours the world will love menow that iContinue reading ““Dissociate” – Nayana Nair”

“The Dying Voices of my Angels” – Nayana Nair

Hold this,whatever this is. Hold thistill I find a way to hide it, get rid of it,or kill it. They say I will die the momentI set the monster in me ablaze.But this is the reasonwarnings no longer work on me. This is why I cannot live the way I want. This is why ‘whatContinue reading ““The Dying Voices of my Angels” – Nayana Nair”

“You’re right” – Nayana Nair

last night *i do not like saying last nightbecause once i only used to speak of it as ‘yesterday night’until someone told me that it’s wrong, even if it means the same so last nighti thought how it is something you’d say“it means the same, but you are wrong” sample conversation(based on reality, read tooContinue reading ““You’re right” – Nayana Nair”

“Fed Up” – Nayana Nair

I am fed up of writing the same sorrowful lines, the same self-pity, the same cries for fairness in a game I’ve quit long ago. I am fed up of this habit of hiding even after the storm has passed.

“Reflections in Failure” – Nayana Nair

I realized in my failures that I was not nearly as good as I thought I was and whatever I am was not worth that much at least not in my own eyes. And nothing I did could change anything unless I could see the significance of what I am and what I do. IContinue reading ““Reflections in Failure” – Nayana Nair”

“Having All” – Nayana Nair

Since the broken have got their share of songs,now let us grieve for the ones who are complete.who have got more than they wanted,and have too much in their hands.Who walk with a loneliness similar to the ones who were deprivedjust without the right to complain or take pity on themselves. . . . MaybeContinue reading ““Having All” – Nayana Nair”

“Saviour” – Nayana Nair

This sad heart of yours,this heart that I love the most,I wondered oncewhy it couldn’t rise above what it is suffering fromeven when you have me.Why as I sit with you talking about myselfyou smile as if trying to contain the tears that you won’t be able to explain. x I have always felt thatContinue reading ““Saviour” – Nayana Nair”