“What have my eyes lost sight of ?” – Nayana Nair

As I sing your praiseI end up recallinghow I used to look at you as if you could save me.But now we stare at each other while my life remains what it is.I don’t call it a mess now, to get some sympathy out of you,to get a miracle out of you.I don’t call itContinue reading ““What have my eyes lost sight of ?” – Nayana Nair”

“Rainbows and Reflection” – Nayana Nair

I always thoughtthat I could be happy,really happy,forever happy,if only I could make myself love happiness. Though I approached this strange kid,though I pretended to be good and as holy as humans can be,I had nothing to say this ever smiling child.All the standard stories I had prepared for this heavy choreof presenting myself toContinue reading ““Rainbows and Reflection” – Nayana Nair”

“Spare me” – Nayana Nair

Spare me from your prayers and spare me from your hearts. I do not yearn for heaven for I never believed it from the start. Spare me from your world. The fear and resentment of being left beind feels less like resentment each day. The reality of life the pain I have given myself turnsContinue reading ““Spare me” – Nayana Nair”

“It didn’t matter” – Nayana Nair

When love, friendship and family were no big words just words, like any other words and it didn’t matter which one mattered more, which one came first, it didn’t matter what loyalty is , what betrayal is. When I didn’t know these words things didn’t hurt so much. When I didn’t know these words IContinue reading ““It didn’t matter” – Nayana Nair”