“What I Remember (16)” – Nayana Nair

you and me you and the me that i was, that you hated once, but not as much what i am right now you and your rough sketch of me that looks like bits and pieces of your past lovers you and your ticking clock, both waiting for me to change you and you habitContinue reading ““What I Remember (16)” – Nayana Nair”

“Rainbows and Reflection” – Nayana Nair

I always thoughtthat I could be happy,really happy,forever happy,if only I could make myself love happiness. Though I approached this strange kid,though I pretended to be good and as holy as humans can be,I had nothing to say this ever smiling child.All the standard stories I had prepared for this heavy choreof presenting myself toContinue reading ““Rainbows and Reflection” – Nayana Nair”

“Counting Losses” – Nayana Nair

I can only go as far as my muscle memory takes me. Since my mind is not here and I can’t leave this body that I have never been able to accept as mine. There is a road that lies in front of me and there is nothing for me to do but to walk.Continue reading ““Counting Losses” – Nayana Nair”

“Thorn” – Nayana Nair

You are a thorn in my heart that only hurts, that only digs deeper when in rare moments I find my way to doors in my life that can’t be opened now and I stand helplessly in front of you whom I no longer love. When you utter the same words but they sound differentContinue reading ““Thorn” – Nayana Nair”

“Surrounded by Chatter” – Nayana Nair

With marker I scribble on the mirror the list of complains I have from you, not caring if they mess up my own reflection. Sometimes thankful that under that I can hide my own obsession with what people will think of me, how much will they value based on the value you give me. AnContinue reading ““Surrounded by Chatter” – Nayana Nair”

“Nothing hurts more” – Nayana Nair

The table is set before us. The lights from a far away sadness finding its way to our faces, that seem too empty without it. There are friends holding glasses filled with whatever helps them forget their hope. Nothing hurts more than hope. For this hour the ache of our heels and the weight onContinue reading ““Nothing hurts more” – Nayana Nair”

“Co-exist” – Nayana Nair

While the rest of the rooms were sleeping in cold, cradling the mere humans who could only do so much as to ignore the present, dreaming of summers, that which in their deepest heart they had no much love for either. But mind has always been a place to escape to, when we were notContinue reading ““Co-exist” – Nayana Nair”