“maintain my world” – Nayana Nair

and this sad premise is not a commentaryon how rotten the world isbut an observationthat we have a pattern that is hard to break. that people often misinterpret the habit of one thingas a proof of its superiority over everything else in world. that words can move your heart,sometimes for worse.it can move you towardsContinue reading ““maintain my world” – Nayana Nair”

“Inversion” – Nayana Nair

When I stand near you,I want to believe that we are standing together.That our hearts being mirror imagesmeans something more.Mirror images…‘Lateral inversion’ they called it, I recall.We feel similar only when facing each other.But when we talk of this world,when we eat from our own broken plates,when we tell each others directions,when we see eachContinue reading ““Inversion” – Nayana Nair”

“Tiptoe” – Nayana Nair

the ones we sign our valentine cards to,the ones we tie ourselves to for lifewait for us to die (or some form of death) to become free.their heart is full of love – only not for us. they tiptoe at night to bury their crimesand demand honesty only when it suits what they have inContinue reading ““Tiptoe” – Nayana Nair”

“Letters from my lover” – Nayana Nair

what is the use of loving youif you won’t speak less and be less for the sake of my ego,if you don’t have the proportions or face to brag about,if you won’t sleep with me,if you have “anxiety attacks” just when i am having fun(it is embarrassing, grow up)if my mom won’t like you,if youContinue reading ““Letters from my lover” – Nayana Nair”

“Before I Forget You”- Nayana Nair

I wanted to write something about you,before I start forgetting-who you were,who i was with you,how we lived,and how we learned how to not live,how we felt the extremes of helplessness,with each other. But I do not want to be the only voice actor in this otherwise silent movie.I could never read your lips.I neverContinue reading ““Before I Forget You”- Nayana Nair”

“Aftermath” – Nayana Nair

Like me, probably many have tried their bestto set their limits,have learned how to stop before learning how to move.We recite story of forgiveness, of patience, of eternal undying loveto our children at night.and when they fall asleepwe recite these stories to ourselves,so that we may not forget them.I remember all the proofs, every newsContinue reading ““Aftermath” – Nayana Nair”

“Laughing it off” – Nayana Nair

I jokingly said that I would hate it to be someone else- someone who would have to suffer me. But before my face realizes what my heart meant, where it becomes apparent in my eyes that I am nowhere near recovery, before I panic at being taken seriously, someone cuts me off with laughter, withContinue reading ““Laughing it off” – Nayana Nair”

“Stay Awake” – Nayana Nair

You loved well. I loved well. The saddest days we have made it though are proof that. We have survived through the worst, it is just that we don’t know how to love each other in peace. How to keep our love alive when there are no enemies threatening it. The calendars change, the furnitureContinue reading ““Stay Awake” – Nayana Nair”

“Lies I tell myself everyday” – Nayana Nair

I tell myself again and again what it is that I really want as I force myself to sit there and listen to every word that diminishes the efforts I have put in my dream. It makes me feel strong and pathetic at the same time, that my wanting too little could also be somethingContinue reading ““Lies I tell myself everyday” – Nayana Nair”

“Scroll” – Nayana Nair

I scrolled through and then scrolled back again. I did this too many times comparing each picture with another. I knew I would not remember even one of them and probably edit out all uncomfortable and evident pain but carry only the image I could see in all. That all who were struck by lightningContinue reading ““Scroll” – Nayana Nair”