“Eventual Fall” – Nayana Nair

She just laughed and said“you are not really intelligent,you know that right?”as she packed her bag,making space for her only notebook, with difficulty.I wonder if she really needs all those the things.She is not a careful person,I know that because her list of priorities is horizontal-everything is important, everything is equally dispensable.I hear a songContinue reading ““Eventual Fall” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember (21)” – Nayana Nair

I prod and push the glass slowly, carefullyto the edge of the table,where your glass stands.At the edge where you place your suitcase,where you always tie your laces once againjust to be sure. That is the place you tell me to lovewhen you think I might lend something of meto keep such place alive,to keepContinue reading ““What I Remember (21)” – Nayana Nair”

“What do you know?” – Nayana Nair

why is it so that i can only choose love if i let myself look weak.it should have been easy to look weak and crumbling, when that is what i feel all the time.but it isn’t easy.maybe because the weakness of my heart has never made me look incompetent,it just made me look cold andContinue reading ““What do you know?” – Nayana Nair”

“Braid Your Love” – Nayana Nair

I couldn’t help but to love you, this you, that from your darkness pushed me away, tried to save me from my choices. *** When I told you that I loved you for your selfless honestly, you made up your mind to leave. *** You told me as you packed your bag that all honestyContinue reading ““Braid Your Love” – Nayana Nair”

“Pay it off” – Nayana Nair

Most my life is aboutstanding at the edge with the othersand choosing whether to push them firstor giving up on myself, by throwing myself away.And all my decisions have ended upin wait for someone else to decide my fate.Wait long enough to think we are friends who are here watching the world set on theContinue reading ““Pay it off” – Nayana Nair”

“Cut Away” – Nayana Nair

How my feelings turn into a joke in your hands. How I have laugh at the sight of this and accept it as something normal. Is this my punishment? For pushing away people, who really cared, who looked for me every time I left. ~~~ But maybe they could do that only because they neverContinue reading ““Cut Away” – Nayana Nair”

“Can’t do this alone” – Nayana Nair

Hold me back from loosing myself to the the slow pain that reaches from within me spiraling up to any light it can see. Pushing me, climbing over me. Not caring. Needing not to care, while my body moves from one breaking world to other, from one uncertain gaze to another. As I read myContinue reading ““Can’t do this alone” – Nayana Nair”

“Pursed Lips” – Nayana Nair

As I purse my lips, trying to push back words that I am afraid are the wrong ones. I wonder, stand in awe, of those gentle souls who heal so many hearts. While I fail to utter any words, fearing, not knowing, what might break them.