“Now playing: the ominous names you are yet to know, yet to resent” – Nayana Nair

I board the train that I couldthinking,only thinking about the one I couldn’t.There are only tunnels, only darkness,no network,only cold metal that I rest my headhoping for my fever to come down,only windows that turn into mirror. In those momentary mirrorsI always look like someone on life support.In the crowd that no longer suffocates meIContinue reading ““Now playing: the ominous names you are yet to know, yet to resent” – Nayana Nair”

“Unlike me” – Nayana Nair

Sometimes I fear you –the way you can make me want to change,the way you make me act unlike myself.I doubt that maybe I am too easily convincedand too easily affected by your existence. I wonder my effort to become someone you deservehow is it different from the insincerity that I have always shown toContinue reading ““Unlike me” – Nayana Nair”

“Only for a bit” – Nayana Nair

i know what is right for meand you obviously are not.you are not good for me.take it any way you want. but it is raining outside.so today,i let myself miss you a bit. today, the world is breaking apart silently.today, i am vanishing.today, i am less hungry for everything. today i am too tired toContinue reading ““Only for a bit” – Nayana Nair”

“Make this one mistake” – Nayana Nair

I want to love you with the sincerity that I don’t have.I want to want you desperately, even when I am fed up with you.I want to look at you as if you are my everythingeven when I know that you are not. – The only thing that stops me from being the love thatContinue reading ““Make this one mistake” – Nayana Nair”

“White Eternity” – Nayana Nair

The gentle snow, my longing eyes, your beautiful smile- all against the landscape lost in eternal white. All these are no longer my precious memory of my everlasting love. I do not remember when you became this person who capable to such harm and such deceit. It is a shame that the you from longContinue reading ““White Eternity” – Nayana Nair”

“Clueless” – Nayana Nair

If I was to resent that everyone I met, everywhere I went, everyone took something from me, yanked it out of my consciousness, moved within my mind with dirty shoes and clumsy hand, and left me clueless of who I am. Then I would also have to thank this world for all the things thatContinue reading ““Clueless” – Nayana Nair”

“Lost you to light” – Nayana Nair

I remember the day that I found you with eyes filled with yearning, heart filled with doubt and hands soiled with blood of the your dreams that you murdered everynight. I found you in the land where we had been banished to, from a world of happiness where our loved ones reside. I remember theContinue reading ““Lost you to light” – Nayana Nair”