“Black Pond” – Nayana Nair

As I climb,my steps remembered the shoes I once hadthe ones that didn’t hurt so muchand how hands of mine that hacked through themjust to become my own person,some sort of grown-up.I climbed over the yellow soft dressand the light that it caughtjust to get this, this body that looks held togetherbut is not(this bodyContinue reading ““Black Pond” – Nayana Nair”

“A Dying Storm” – Nayana Nair

i close all the doorsas if a storm in coming,as if closed doors can protect me from something so huge,as if hiding is a better option than fleeing.‘i wish i had created more places to hide in my life’i thought this as tried to burn all my best clothesas if i will freeze to deathContinue reading ““A Dying Storm” – Nayana Nair”

“Pay it off” – Nayana Nair

Most my life is aboutstanding at the edge with the othersand choosing whether to push them firstor giving up on myself, by throwing myself away.And all my decisions have ended upin wait for someone else to decide my fate.Wait long enough to think we are friends who are here watching the world set on theContinue reading ““Pay it off” – Nayana Nair”

“Make this one mistake” – Nayana Nair

I want to love you with the sincerity that I don’t have.I want to want you desperately, even when I am fed up with you.I want to look at you as if you are my everythingeven when I know that you are not. – The only thing that stops me from being the love thatContinue reading ““Make this one mistake” – Nayana Nair”

“You are the difference” – Nayana Nair

On evenings such as thesewhen the all the withered flowers of my hearthave regained the life that once left them,when I have known what is it to die,when I have known how rare it is to find a road back to lifewhen I have known the pain of losing,I feel even now I can tryContinue reading ““You are the difference” – Nayana Nair”

“Aunt” – Nayana Nair

“Yes, I do have plans for my future my dear aunt.” I say, after I see her put her cup down and look at me with sympathy and resentment. “How can we not worry. It is your future we are talking about.” Actually, I never had these conversation, at least not with my aunt. IContinue reading ““Aunt” – Nayana Nair”

“Spare me” – Nayana Nair

Spare me from your prayers and spare me from your hearts. I do not yearn for heaven for I never believed it from the start. Spare me from your world. The fear and resentment of being left beind feels less like resentment each day. The reality of life the pain I have given myself turnsContinue reading ““Spare me” – Nayana Nair”