“Pendulums and Spirit Animals” – Nayana Nair

In my beautiful dreamsI run to you, as if you are my body,as if I cannot press play without your hands,as if the world won’t come into my graspwithout your skin. When my eyes open,I don’t mind losing the worldif it helps me get rid of you. An animal in me cries out your nameContinue reading ““Pendulums and Spirit Animals” – Nayana Nair”

“Well” – Nayana Nair

I left my thirst in your well-the only way to get rid of it,get rid of it I must.For three seasons I filled it up with dirt.I waited for rains to hide my steps, to hide what I have done.I built few hills every time you crossed my thought.I built it with love. I builtContinue reading ““Well” – Nayana Nair”

“Used to this” – Nayana Nair

The light is not enough. I must somehow reach the empty glassesthat hold no memories, no magic.They won’t light up,and all I can do is to learn to live in dark.I need to get rid of all of them.Sure, sitting here in the prison of you,calling it a garden of leftover love is romantic.Sure, learningContinue reading ““Used to this” – Nayana Nair”

“The Dying Voices of my Angels” – Nayana Nair

Hold this,whatever this is. Hold thistill I find a way to hide it, get rid of it,or kill it. They say I will die the momentI set the monster in me ablaze.But this is the reasonwarnings no longer work on me. This is why I cannot live the way I want. This is why ‘whatContinue reading ““The Dying Voices of my Angels” – Nayana Nair”

“You’re right” – Nayana Nair

last night *i do not like saying last nightbecause once i only used to speak of it as ‘yesterday night’until someone told me that it’s wrong, even if it means the same so last nighti thought how it is something you’d say“it means the same, but you are wrong” sample conversation(based on reality, read tooContinue reading ““You’re right” – Nayana Nair”

“Getting Rid of Roads” – Nayana Nair

I wish I could keep it all,that I didn’t have to get rid ofthe roads that won’t take me anywhere. All the beginnings that won’t see an end,I wish I could hold onto them. If only my heart was huge enoughto keep every feeling that I do not need anymore,I wouldn’t have to abandon theContinue reading ““Getting Rid of Roads” – Nayana Nair”

“Stay Awake” – Nayana Nair

You loved well. I loved well. The saddest days we have made it though are proof that. We have survived through the worst, it is just that we don’t know how to love each other in peace. How to keep our love alive when there are no enemies threatening it. The calendars change, the furnitureContinue reading ““Stay Awake” – Nayana Nair”

“Counting Losses” – Nayana Nair

I can only go as far as my muscle memory takes me. Since my mind is not here and I can’t leave this body that I have never been able to accept as mine. There is a road that lies in front of me and there is nothing for me to do but to walk.Continue reading ““Counting Losses” – Nayana Nair”

“Resemblance” – Nayana Nair

Have you heard about the lady that sits two seats away. They have an awful lot to say about her. I have never heard her speak, but what I hear about her is so much more interesting than what she could possibly tell me. No, I do not participate is spreading lies or statements thatContinue reading ““Resemblance” – Nayana Nair”

“Mess” – Nayana Nair

A shadow moves in the clearing ahead avoiding the columns of lighted air. It steps on the green now splattered with red and looks for a hand that can help, to get rid of this blood. It finds my face and looks away seeing probably I am in a bigger mess.