“Summer Mood” – Nayana Nair

my feet relentlessly insiston burning themselvesfor the sake of summer mood. i wear a shirt too big for me.a wear a smile a bit too small.i wear the worry of my parents on my neck. i feel their fearwhen i smile back at strangers.i pretend to be the sand that no one can hurt.i pretendContinue reading ““Summer Mood” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember (18)” – Nayana Nair

today’s sadness is brought uponby the increasing count of the words that i have forbidden myself to speak. today’s sadness is brought upon by the particularly sad song that i have chosen to listen. today’s sadness is partially due to the strangers with sweet eyes,partially due to my angels with weak hearts,and also the factContinue reading ““What I Remember (18)” – Nayana Nair”

“Things you don’t care to know” – Nayana Nair

You who took so much space in meyou who created stories in me, put up grand shows of light and shadows in meyou who spent your nights naming every star, trying to claim my sky-at the end,you were too easy to forget. Or maybe sitting in this world where everything is yours,I find it hardContinue reading ““Things you don’t care to know” – Nayana Nair”

“Argument” – Nayana Nair

The essays I have written on the wretchedness of this world, they are merely an argument, a poor argument, the only argument I can give when I am confronted by the wretchedness of my own soul, the blood on my own hands, the weight of shame on my conscience, and my inability to change. (QuoteContinue reading ““Argument” – Nayana Nair”

“Make this one mistake” – Nayana Nair

I want to love you with the sincerity that I don’t have.I want to want you desperately, even when I am fed up with you.I want to look at you as if you are my everythingeven when I know that you are not. – The only thing that stops me from being the love thatContinue reading ““Make this one mistake” – Nayana Nair”

“god’s work” – Nayana Nair

i wanted to sayplease don’t drag my godinto your selfish quest for power.please don’t turn my godinto a tool to manipulate mind.but i couldn’t say those thingsfor my god was no longer my god,he/she belonged to people who were readyto accept any lie, any crueltyto propagate their beliefs and their way of lifeto protect theirContinue reading ““god’s work” – Nayana Nair”

“White Eternity” – Nayana Nair

The gentle snow, my longing eyes, your beautiful smile- all against the landscape lost in eternal white. All these are no longer my precious memory of my everlasting love. I do not remember when you became this person who capable to such harm and such deceit. It is a shame that the you from longContinue reading ““White Eternity” – Nayana Nair”

“The More I Hear” – Nayana Nair

The songs buzz in my head. It’s only your voice in that song this time that stops me from moving away. This noise again that feels like love. For I have already been acquainted with it in another sweet disaster, when someone told me I was worth more than what I think of. And manyContinue reading ““The More I Hear” – Nayana Nair”

“Book that I can’t read” – Nayana Nair

The book that I can’t read is not abandoned on the shelves has not been moved to the lowest rack because it is bad. But because so much of me is filled in it. So many words from my heart reside on those pages, that I am bound to question if this is the reasonContinue reading ““Book that I can’t read” – Nayana Nair”

“More Boxes” – Nayana Nair

Everyday I buy more boxes and more trunks, to stow away the harmless opinions and stories of mine that have never left my mouth, and have never known how the cold air of this world feels like. They are better off not knowing how they are going to be broken and crushed till nothing ofContinue reading ““More Boxes” – Nayana Nair”