“Pendulums and Spirit Animals” – Nayana Nair

In my beautiful dreamsI run to you, as if you are my body,as if I cannot press play without your hands,as if the world won’t come into my graspwithout your skin. When my eyes open,I don’t mind losing the worldif it helps me get rid of you. An animal in me cries out your nameContinue reading ““Pendulums and Spirit Animals” – Nayana Nair”

“one more person” – Nayana Nair

the one thing i can’t beis honest.though there are many other adjectivesthat stare at mefrom their balconies at midnightas i walk and crawl through the dirt road,through the pool of lights,crying and shouting and breaking dreamsin every home that i pass by.i hear them shaking their headswith disapproval and hopelessness.i look at their hazy shadowsandContinue reading ““one more person” – Nayana Nair”

“Have a Good Day” – Nayana Nair

I was sat down and told repeatedly everyday that though the world belongs to all of us, sometimes it is better to step back, to only take up the space we need. I misunderstood it to be a lesson in humility, wanting less, and sacrifice, but I realize now that it was not so. IContinue reading ““Have a Good Day” – Nayana Nair”

“Weeds of our Garden” – Nayana Nair

We sit here all day, in our own corners.The only corner that we could save from the world that we left.The only piece of happiness we decided to carry on ourselvesbecause we didn’t wanted to be considered pitiful for clinging to something.Because once we thought that feelings such as these are only hindrance.Because we sawContinue reading ““Weeds of our Garden” – Nayana Nair”

“Unsettling” – Nayana Nair

One day I was watching TV or I thought I was until it seemed that the boy whose silence alone was unsettling to many, the loud girl who dreams of becoming the nightmare she suffers, even the clueless proud parent who try hard to be cool were all angry, everyone was shouting not at eachContinue reading ““Unsettling” – Nayana Nair”

“Asking for More” – Nayana Nair

The lost all gather at the same door as I. They shout, yell and cry. Praise and tell lies. To be taken in. To be cared for. To be chosen. To be looked at, even once. Do they also feel smaller for standing here and waiting, for asking things whose void eats you up. ThisContinue reading ““Asking for More” – Nayana Nair”

“Endless Screech” – Nayana Nair

It has been long since I saw your face for what it was. Now the ends of your lips droops and your words stings and your action have become the endless screech of a madman. I didn’t want to spare my words to remind you of your change. I didn’t want to forgive you forContinue reading ““Endless Screech” – Nayana Nair”

“Too late to care” – Nayana Nair

There are moments of indifference that once piled up seems more than the years I have lived. There are too many memories where I cannot see anyone but myself running around in a dark cave afraid of everything I bump into. Not knowing that even if I shout if anyone would hear, sometimes fearful ofContinue reading ““Too late to care” – Nayana Nair”

“All the tones”- Nayana Nair

If I memorized all the tones that drifted in from a world of happiness we are no longer inhabitants of, the tones that drip ever so slowly filling our heart with love and filling our life with pain, the tone that ripples through every word I weigh on my tongue. all the tones that resonatesContinue reading ““All the tones”- Nayana Nair”

“Stuck in my heart” – Nayana Nair

I sat on the stairs long after they stopped shouting. As the shout and anger made room for themselves in our lives. As muted cries became muted sighs. I would look at the sky and see no stars, but only the tears that pooled my eyes. For long, a portion of time got stuck inContinue reading ““Stuck in my heart” – Nayana Nair”