The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 3)” – Nayana Nair

#the right time to answer the door The doorbell has been ringing for hours. I wish I could say it was annoying. But it is not. A part of me is happy to know that you are out there. That you know that sooner or later I would answer this door. It has been longContinue reading “The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 3)” – Nayana Nair”

“You’re right” – Nayana Nair

last night *i do not like saying last nightbecause once i only used to speak of it as ‘yesterday night’until someone told me that it’s wrong, even if it means the same so last nighti thought how it is something you’d say“it means the same, but you are wrong” sample conversation(based on reality, read tooContinue reading ““You’re right” – Nayana Nair”

“Letters from my lover” – Nayana Nair

what is the use of loving youif you won’t speak less and be less for the sake of my ego,if you don’t have the proportions or face to brag about,if you won’t sleep with me,if you have “anxiety attacks” just when i am having fun(it is embarrassing, grow up)if my mom won’t like you,if youContinue reading ““Letters from my lover” – Nayana Nair”

“What do you know?” – Nayana Nair

why is it so that i can only choose love if i let myself look weak.it should have been easy to look weak and crumbling, when that is what i feel all the time.but it isn’t easy.maybe because the weakness of my heart has never made me look incompetent,it just made me look cold andContinue reading ““What do you know?” – Nayana Nair”

“Ending the Blue Days” – Nayana Nair

as i walk among all that should be ruins, i feel humbled. i feel stupid to think that these small sorrows of mine are something that could end this world. i find another overused word on my lips again – promises. they remind me of promises. they remind of having something more important than onesContinue reading ““Ending the Blue Days” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember(4)” – Nayana Nair

I tell myself that I have nothing worth saying and that no one wants to listen. I know this because I have tried to speak my mind and in best cases I have been told that my mind is not that right, that the experience that I speak from doesn’t exist for them, so theyContinue reading ““What I Remember(4)” – Nayana Nair”

“One Despair” – Nayana Nair

Even though I fed myself so many lies and called them dreams, but I guess I still cannot call them lies. Because though stupid, the innocence that once made me believe in all kinds of kind future and made me think that I won’t have to choose just one or get the one I choose-Continue reading ““One Despair” – Nayana Nair”