“The thought of losing you” – Nayana Nair

Today you are silentand you don’t care.You have changedwithout changing anything about you.You don’t want to be concerned withshould-be or could-beas all that matters is what is.what-is is a fact that needs no forgivenessfrom what-didn’t-come-to-be.You beg me not drag you downinto the waters of the past, “They are uglythey are hard, they are things thatContinue reading ““The thought of losing you” – Nayana Nair”

“Waiting for the fireworks to end” – Nayana Nair

In her loudest, happiest voiceshe told me aboutone of her near-death loves,how she wished her skinwould stop keeping her alive.She laughed at how we bothalways find something awfully painful or ugly in common,how we should probably never call each otherjust to remind each other of the spitethat lives in our blood. I moved her lacklusterContinue reading ““Waiting for the fireworks to end” – Nayana Nair”

“Shore of Mornings” – Nayana Nair

As I swim towards the shore of morning,I think of you sometimes.Sometimes I think of you without maliceor hatred or blame.Only sometimes.Sometimes I am able to separate your existencefrom my pain.I guess,you are no longer my woundor weakness or love. So as I swim back to the shoresthat for once are there within my reach,IContinue reading ““Shore of Mornings” – Nayana Nair”

“Someone is waiting for me” – Nayana Nair

Fog swims over my study table.The glasses grow cold and oldand useless.Again I forget to drink the medicine,the milk, the love that fills my phone.Like I forgot to get vaccinated,to close the door, to wear something warmeven after being remindedhow easy it is to die.Someone is waiting for meto say the words I do notContinue reading ““Someone is waiting for me” – Nayana Nair”

“Eventual Fall” – Nayana Nair

She just laughed and said“you are not really intelligent,you know that right?”as she packed her bag,making space for her only notebook, with difficulty.I wonder if she really needs all those the things.She is not a careful person,I know that because her list of priorities is horizontal-everything is important, everything is equally dispensable.I hear a songContinue reading ““Eventual Fall” – Nayana Nair”

“Deer” – Nayana Nair

In our reflection in the disappearing streamyou look like the golden deerthat I am not supposed to want.The water angels, one of which we might end up eating for dinner tonight,swims into my face, distorting the light in my eyes,splitting my lips, my cheeks, my smile into two,into four, into hundred, into thousand pieces ofContinue reading ““Deer” – Nayana Nair”

“Fading Heaven” – Nayana Nair

You asked “Is this what becomes of love? When this star falls and loses it’s distance, when it loses it’s light does it become nothing more than a stone to be kicked around?” I knew better than to tell you that the stars do not care for such trivial things as our love, that theContinue reading ““Fading Heaven” – Nayana Nair”

“Not Love” – Nayana Nair

The mountains I must scale and the currents I must swim against are all in you. Love has nothing to do with me wanting to know the storm you have become. I find myself the reason of your flooded cities of hope, the chaotic streets of your mind. I refuse to leave you alone inContinue reading ““Not Love” – Nayana Nair”

“My Night sky” – Nayana Nair

You dip your hand in my heart, kiss my poems as they are. You hold my pulse in your wrist. You hold my shadows in your mist. You can swim in the rivers of my night sky studded with most beautiful words. But I will be alone in my sadness and you in yours. ForContinue reading ““My Night sky” – Nayana Nair”