“why am i hurt by your hopes?” – Nayana Nair

i thought…i wanted…i am always looking for…i am nothing without… must i fill these sentences?is it compulsoryto tell you where it hurts and why? the pencil bends and breaksin my hand, but my voice won’t crack.i think a bit of my cruelty shows through everything that i do. “have you ever wanted to be aContinue reading ““why am i hurt by your hopes?” – Nayana Nair”

“The wind is picking up” – Nayana Nair

The wind is picking up.The white sand unlike watersinks everything too slowly.And so the shade less trees of eucalyptus become shadows that I learn to love.They become compass that knows no direction,but just piece this world to hold, the silent assurancethat I am not yet lost, though my eyes can’t tell. *** The wind isContinue reading ““The wind is picking up” – Nayana Nair”

“Hello?” – Nayana Nair

hello?can you help me?can you tell me which way to go,which part of me to burnto reach the dumping groundwhere lay all the skins that humans have ever shed? i have been living in my dreams for quite some time,where i am the old-mesurrounded by my old-family, old-friends, old-strangers. dreams that i can no longerContinue reading ““Hello?” – Nayana Nair”

“I won’t ask any questions” – Nayana Nair

I won’t ask any questions that you can’t answer and there are so many of them. Everything I want to ask, everything I want to tell you is always something that I shouldn’t. I am tied up by all that can’t let myself do. But at the same time I want some kind of happinessContinue reading ““I won’t ask any questions” – Nayana Nair”

“Thoughtless Scribbles” – Nayana Nair

Do not scribble thoughtlessly your name on these walls. Don’t make yourself at home if you don’t plan to stay. I am not someone who has learnt to let go of anything I value. I am not someone who will close my heart only because it hurts. I wear my insanity in glittering colors andContinue reading ““Thoughtless Scribbles” – Nayana Nair”

“Only Stories” – Nayana Nair

Let’s leave all this. All this that we love, all this that only knows how to hurt us back. Let’s stop being disappointed and gather up courage to walk away cause even if we stay we will only have few more stories to tell. Stories that are so dark that we won’t be even ableContinue reading ““Only Stories” – Nayana Nair”

“You are more than love” – Nayana Nair

Thank you for seeing my rough and the jagged mind, blood running down my arm, hope running out of my eyes. – Thank you for trying and for telling me when you couldn’t try anymore. You have made me feel that I also deserve decent goodbyes. – You cannot love me. I could have lovedContinue reading ““You are more than love” – Nayana Nair”

“Afloat” – Nayana Nair

I find myself more broken that I was before.I find myself praying to every deity who did me wrong,who never cared,praying that they changed their mind,hoping that maybe today they will find me pitiful enoughand finally see me as one of their child. -x- And while they continue to stay silent and cruel and distant,IContinue reading ““Afloat” – Nayana Nair”

“I won’t be fine” – Nayana Nair

Why does your lie hurt me so when I know it is a lie? Why are we ready to act as if things have gone wrong between us, when you still love me like you used to, when I still feel like it was only yesterday that you changed my life merely by existing. IContinue reading ““I won’t be fine” – Nayana Nair”

“Distort You” – Nayana Nair

This one. This is the photograph I was telling you about the other day. You see those kids around me, having broader smile than me those are the friends I never had. They will tell you otherwise. What they tell maybe more hopeful than my lies or maybe more sadder than my truth. But IContinue reading ““Distort You” – Nayana Nair”