“What I Remember (24)” – Nayana Nair

It is time to go out into the world. It is time that I try hard to get my heart brokenand pretend that it is happening for the first time, to claim that I trusted blindlyknowing it is not something I am capable of, to fit my body awkwardlyin the kind of life that peopleContinue reading ““What I Remember (24)” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember (13)” – Nayana Nair

i did all that i must doand now no one asks me what’s next.thankfully,no one burdens me with with their dreams anymore.i am no longer a possible candidate for the worst,for taking over the misfortune of my mother’s life.i no longer have to worry about hurting my parents bybeing like them or living like them.thankfully,whatContinue reading ““What I Remember (13)” – Nayana Nair”

“The Better That We Want”- Nayana Nair

Once we are done with the ritual of tea, as I leave the room with his cup and mine, I leave behind my shadow with him. That is his favorite part of his evening and he is all too happy to talk to a quieter me. He feels my shadow is somehow better than me.Continue reading ““The Better That We Want”- Nayana Nair”

“Cruel” – Nayana Nair

I always had a sense of entitlement when it came to dreaming of a lover. That there would be someone who puts me first. But I realized with time sometimes you have to be that someone who puts others first. That was such a terrifying and distressing thought. And suddenly all these heroes became somewhatContinue reading ““Cruel” – Nayana Nair”

“Wind Chimes” -Nayana Nair

The wind chimes on television seem so beautiful, sound so soothing. But I had a wind chime that never made a sound. There was never a wind around my house at least not the one that pleased my wind chimes. The occasional wind will touch my cheeks but never the edges of the shining metal.Continue reading ““Wind Chimes” -Nayana Nair”