“What I Remember (29)” – Nayana Nair

At a bus stand in front of mall (that I have never been to)I learnt how to wait and how to live with disappointmentswithout making a big deal of it. In the bracket of an hour, I grew smaller than I ever thought I could be.“this is what love does to you, this is whatContinue reading ““What I Remember (29)” – Nayana Nair”

“today’s forecast” – Nayana Nair

today’s forecasttold me about rainthat might turn to snowwhich might turn to pain in my knees,it might turn into wishing for summer(summer is always you lying on couch tired cursing gods for seasons you hate),it might move my hands towards the pillsthat rarely save anyone needing saving(i really don’t trust pills if you are notContinue reading ““today’s forecast” – Nayana Nair”

The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 2)” – Nayana Nair

#about the street where we won’t meet There is a street in my mind, where an often underappreciated singer sings about a love that stands just across the street. Forever they stand there, one trying make up combinations of words, variations of beautiful verses – not to win her heart, but to beg the worldContinue reading “The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 2)” – Nayana Nair”

“Surely, I will love you” – Nayana Nair

The memories I burnt awayhave turned into spirits, into thoughtsthat hold me back from naming and keeping this happinessthat sits at my doorstep, waiting for my love.And though the shadows of my past are tied to my legs, though they rattle on empty roadsand never let the the dust of my life settle.But ‘it isContinue reading ““Surely, I will love you” – Nayana Nair”

“i hope i forget this life” – Nayana Nair

matter, substance, meaning…as my vocabulary expanded with such words,i knew,i had an inkling that this is howi would be disillusioned,with such small wordsi would be driven to despair. i would find there is another face behind every smile,and that some of those upturned lips are just empty coffins.a smile so sad, a wordless lieso easilyContinue reading ““i hope i forget this life” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember (10)” – Nayana Nair

I want to write about the boring, about all that is insignificant, about the trust that lasts, about the promises that are kept, about the things we don’t have to beg from god. I belive there must be some things in life that goes as we wanted to, that didn’t take our effort, our prayersContinue reading ““What I Remember (10)” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember(8)”- Nayana Nair

when i see my past pain in your tears now come here, come inside and cry how much ever you want. we don’t want the neighbors to know how much worse we are doing than them. trust me dear, it does no one good if you go around with these puffed eyes and cracking voice.Continue reading ““What I Remember(8)”- Nayana Nair”

“Empty Shells” – Nayana Nair

The list of all the words that I use and don’t know meaning of: friend, understanding, dream, ethics, distance, space, wait, promise, family, kindness, virtue, trust, love, love, love, love, love, love, (I was told I need to be especially obsessed with love if I want to be normal) I, me, memory (real or invented),Continue reading ““Empty Shells” – Nayana Nair”

“Cure Me of Me” – Nayana Nair

We are too suspicious when we find the hearts we can trust,too burdened when they trust us back,too careless towards what is ours.We are too vain to apologizeand too distracted to stay in love.We have stored up so much lonelinessand so many expectationsthat nothing quite matches up to the standards we have.

“Slip every time” – Nayana Nair

There is one step where I slip every time. And just because I know now to jump across it, doesn’t mean it ceased to exist. It just means I have to keep reminding myself what to avoid. Sadly, the trivial betrayals and their deeper hurt doesn’t reform my trusting heart. My aloofness is just aContinue reading ““Slip every time” – Nayana Nair”