“this how i want to be frozen in you” – Nayana Nair

wave after wave of cold air,of sad premonitionsreached us, tried to convince usthat this was a really bad idea.that on a cold day like thisthere were easier ways to find warmth,ways that would take away no part of us. and frankly i was afraid.i stopped maybe a million times on my tracks.i waited for someoneContinue reading ““this how i want to be frozen in you” – Nayana Nair”

“Flowers used to bloom here” – Nayana Nair

There is a wall of flowers before her.She looks at it as if they are a softer kind of firework,a firework in reverse,the colors leaving the petals, crawling deep into itself,leaving the color of the inevitable sad endingthat Nature always ends up falling for,after a series of boys who lied to her about a foreverinContinue reading ““Flowers used to bloom here” – Nayana Nair”

“One Despair” – Nayana Nair

Even though I fed myself so many lies and called them dreams, but I guess I still cannot call them lies. Because though stupid, the innocence that once made me believe in all kinds of kind future and made me think that I won’t have to choose just one or get the one I choose-Continue reading ““One Despair” – Nayana Nair”

“Asking for More” – Nayana Nair

The lost all gather at the same door as I. They shout, yell and cry. Praise and tell lies. To be taken in. To be cared for. To be chosen. To be looked at, even once. Do they also feel smaller for standing here and waiting, for asking things whose void eats you up. ThisContinue reading ““Asking for More” – Nayana Nair”

“Sleep” -Nayana Nair

It has been ages since I wanted to sleep. I feel tired and exhausted. I feel an urge to dip myself in cold cold water. So I could get rid of this heaviness in my soul. I feel like running and crying and cursing and speaking all the stuff that make no sense. I doContinue reading ““Sleep” -Nayana Nair”