“See Things” – Nayana Nair

If I could see fartherthan my will, my half-blindness allows,would I have wanted to see things for what they are?Probably not. Or maybe just wondering rather than wantingis a truer start.

“Variant of Love” – Nayana Nair

You held me as I broke again and again.Your warm chest tried to hold me, to keep me alive.I couldn’t cry anymoreI felt indebted to you I loved you. You left me againin the crowd that you promised to protect me from.I called you, your number and you name-becoming useless to me with each passingContinue reading ““Variant of Love” – Nayana Nair”

“News of my new love and loveless life” – Nayana Nair

DRAWING THE STARS WRONGall my hopes, now in your hands,feel like signs of trouble.i liked it on paper, the broken star in red ink,but not on my sky.can i undo my steps to you?will my heart break even if you leave my skin? STRIPPING YOU OF FLESHbefore i turn away from youthere are things thatContinue reading ““News of my new love and loveless life” – Nayana Nair”

“Give you away” – Nayana Nair

I wonderif the roles I playare really what I want to be.Or is it too late? Are my roles,my not-so-temporary voicesalready doingthe dreaming and the wantingin my placefor me? I see you and utter “love me”without thinking twice.Even if you findsome love left in you to give up,I wonderis there any “me” left in metoContinue reading ““Give you away” – Nayana Nair”

“Assignment” – Nayana Nair

There was that pile of paperI could never keep safe.The crossed out, always crossed out words,words always out of order,words turned beautifulonly because they dissolvedin my frustration.Only because now I cannot read themwithout effort.I must make something out of themsomething that couldn’t possibly be mine. The blue ink dripping,forming planets on unexpected letters,forming planets onContinue reading ““Assignment” – Nayana Nair”

“Living some sort of life” – Nayana Nair

His face lit upwith the death of every colorful explosion in the sky.He hates this sky on other days(among other things).Today he loves it, this darkness,this crowd, even me.(Maybe not me,but it doesn’t mean anything to me now.But in moments like thisI am reminded of the “me” who would have wanted his loveor at leastContinue reading ““Living some sort of life” – Nayana Nair”

“Shore of Mornings” – Nayana Nair

As I swim towards the shore of morning,I think of you sometimes.Sometimes I think of you without maliceor hatred or blame.Only sometimes.Sometimes I am able to separate your existencefrom my pain.I guess,you are no longer my woundor weakness or love. So as I swim back to the shoresthat for once are there within my reach,IContinue reading ““Shore of Mornings” – Nayana Nair”

“name my heart” – Nayana Nair

i draw a white lighton another perfect windowwith my broken hand the clouds have gatheredfor memy blue stream must be dying inside i speak my softest tonguei lift my woundsto show my untainted heart stay on the waves in my eyestouch the only vein in my bodythat knows how to hope, i beg but theyContinue reading ““name my heart” – Nayana Nair”

“Random Radio” – Nayana Nair

Don’t tell me of your love.Tell me you’ll leave tomorrowand stay a day more.Move an inch closerwhen I take your name.Let me not believe you sometimesand smile when I do.I don’t want love,but I will try to want it,if you try to want me slowly and cautiously.When you put on that random radio stationlet meContinue reading ““Random Radio” – Nayana Nair”

“maintain my world” – Nayana Nair

and this sad premise is not a commentaryon how rotten the world isbut an observationthat we have a pattern that is hard to break. that people often misinterpret the habit of one thingas a proof of its superiority over everything else in world. that words can move your heart,sometimes for worse.it can move you towardsContinue reading ““maintain my world” – Nayana Nair”