“Now playing: the ominous names you are yet to know, yet to resent” – Nayana Nair

I board the train that I couldthinking,only thinking about the one I couldn’t.There are only tunnels, only darkness,no network,only cold metal that I rest my headhoping for my fever to come down,only windows that turn into mirror. In those momentary mirrorsI always look like someone on life support.In the crowd that no longer suffocates meIContinue reading ““Now playing: the ominous names you are yet to know, yet to resent” – Nayana Nair”

“Putting myself to sleep” – Nayana Nair

Every nightas you sleep,I fold myself upinto someone I used to be.I try to fit into the space beside youwhere no longer fit. But your warmth now only brings me tears.I wish it didn’t.Even though I stopped wanting you,I don’t think I stopped loving you.I wish I didn’t.I know I will give you up somedaybutContinue reading ““Putting myself to sleep” – Nayana Nair”

“Keep You Here” – Nayana Nair

Even a harmless silence on your part brings me down to tears. I act in pathetic way trying to get you back, trying to buy your love sometime using sympathy, sometimes throwing tantrums, sometimes by changing myself, by changing you, at times pretending that I am done with you hoping that you try to stopContinue reading ““Keep You Here” – Nayana Nair”