“What are we doing now?” – Nayana Nair

Another chanceto get our highfrom the powdered dust of dreams,from digging desperately, getting closer to the voiceof the demons we buried just yesterday,breaking nails and curfews tosave the skins we can’t live without. Another chanceat making a home,choosing colors for our ceilings,choosing the sides we will sleep on,choosing not to be the ones we haveContinue reading ““What are we doing now?” – Nayana Nair”

“Fumbling for better words, better me ” – Nayana Nair

I find myself trappedbetween forgiveness and frustration. How often have I saidthat I want to be your strength.How easy it was to say itwhen I didn’t really know you or me. But nowwhen your breaking and my sadnessis of your makingI am fumbling for better words- words that can show my heartthat aches for youContinue reading ““Fumbling for better words, better me ” – Nayana Nair”

“Scribble your farewell words on my hands” – Nayana Nair

We can never move forward,together or alone,if we don’t find the courage in ourselvesto look at each otherand to say what needs to be said.If we choose silence againwe will never know the depth of our blindnessor the easy path of love we didn’t take.We will be always walking on the minefieldof each other’s wordsContinue reading ““Scribble your farewell words on my hands” – Nayana Nair”

“To the one who who couldn’t change me” – Nayana Nair

The answers I hearare never the words you speak. The answers I hear answers arepoorly dubbed clips of proven cruelties and truththat only a stranger to my pain could utter,that only you could utter. It is the thoughtlessnesswith which you try to pronounce hope with ease in front of me,even when you know the namesContinue reading ““To the one who who couldn’t change me” – Nayana Nair”

“Talks of flowers” – Nayana Nair

She told me I feel like frozen tulipsand I do not know what she meant by that.She never talks of flowers or futureor what I might be in this worldby myself or by her side.So we pretend such words were never said.We pretend that the meaning we giveto each other’s wordsare true and realand theContinue reading ““Talks of flowers” – Nayana Nair”

“Anomaly of the Art Class” – Nayana Nair

I row my heartto the moon you drew,the one you colored in greenignoring every reality,for which you got an D,for which I lost a part of me. I no longer hold onto the poems filled with dread-dread of rejection, of future, of finding myself eventually broken.I see something that you have left behind in me.SomethingContinue reading ““Anomaly of the Art Class” – Nayana Nair”

“Easy Girl” – Nayana Nair

in my cramped worldyou find a place for yourself. you become one with all the bright thingsthat i collect at the cost of breaking myself. as you smile, i wonderwhether you have a thing for girlswho have forgotten the taste of truth. i wish you do.i would like to love you once,before you learn toContinue reading ““Easy Girl” – Nayana Nair”

“but love…” – Nayana Nair

but lovethe i cannot see youwithout this night,for you are not my sunbut only it’s reminder. but lovei can be the person you loveonly as long as you love be back,as long as my heart wants to forget the pastand the owner of my heart. but lovein your gloryi always fall short.i yearn to loveContinue reading ““but love…” – Nayana Nair”

“The city that won’t decompose” – Nayana Nair

Some days I am thankful to the wallsthat never broke down when I did,that looms up to the heightsthat seem more beautiful than sad(on certain days at least). The tiny tiles, the cemented words in me-they were supposed to be who I am,they were meant to decomposewhen I chose to change my ways,when I choseContinue reading ““The city that won’t decompose” – Nayana Nair”

“A Sadness to Replace You” – Nayana Nair

The lines are drawn.The teams have been split.Now I must show loyalty only to “my kind”.Now I must learn by heartthe roads that I am not allowed to take.Your heart probably lies on one of those roads.That’s probably the reason, why my feet won’t walk in your direction. What is it like to live inContinue reading ““A Sadness to Replace You” – Nayana Nair”