“Love?” – Nayana Nair

I wanted too little
and yet you who speaks of all the riches of this world
you could not give me the little that I wanted.
Not because you can’t
but because you would rather not.

I am poisonous.
I am the worst,
the one people should avoid.
All my sorrows are my punishment for not being what you wanted.
All my weakness is something to be ridiculed.
I should be okay
or even rejoice when you question my mental stability
everyday as a joke.

This is what your love has taught me.

Can it still be called love?
Am I still obliged to love you back in a kinder way,
when all you have done is to take pride
that you loved someone twisted as me
as if you have made the biggest sacrifice of your life.


  1. frejatravels says:

    This poem is kind of strange and I am a bit lost….

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      he he πŸ™‚
      I know it is bit weird poem. And though it doesn’t correctly have a unity of thought. But there was something in the way these disjointed thoughts looked that I didn’t want to alter it.
      As of what the poem is about…I will try to elaborate…but not sure whether I will be able to. In some relationship, one person is dependent on the weakness of the other to feel good about themselves. They feel proud to have loved beneath them and there will be always someone who they are better than. Kind of like, the inferiority (or the assumption that they are) fuels their ego. And the issue is this kind of love (or shall we call it a emotional dependency) never tries to heal the other person’s heart, but in fact tries to keep them wounded and hurt. Because of they change the status quo and the basis of the relationship is challenged.
      I tried to write from the perspective of the person who is already suffering in life and the love he/she finds hurts them more because of this dependency on their state of sadness and self-complex.
      Do I make any sense? I hope I do.

      1. frejatravels says:

        aha.. thanks. yes, I understand better now. Personally I though most people have relationship when they are comfortable with each other and complement other weakness. But maybe true, some people use other weakness for the advantage.

    1. Nayana Nair says:

      Thanks a lot for nominating πŸ™‚ Means a lot.

      1. _PritAmDas_ says:

        No your writing is fantastic.😊😍

      2. Nayana Nair says:

        Really flattered to hear that πŸ™‚
        I am glad that you have such good opinion about my writing. Thank you πŸ™‚

      3. _PritAmDas_ says:

        You are welcome. Always 😊

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