
This sad heart of yours,
this heart that I love the most,
I wondered once
why it couldn’t rise above what it is suffering from
even when you have me.
Why as I sit with you talking about myself
you smile as if trying to contain the tears
that you won’t be able to explain.
x
I have always felt that even though
we were meant to go through everything together
it was just me
looking at you
fighting someone who I couldn’t even see.
x
Every drop of love that I bring to you
end up being just another drop of expectation
that helps you drown that much faster.
x
And when I am done being disappointed with myself
for being insufficient,
for not being able to make a difference in your life,
I end up thinking that maybe
sometimes love cannot exorcise
the feelings that we have for ourselves
and maybe I just need to learn to see the you
who is able to smile instead of all that you suffer from
with pride
instead of taking pity on you
and trying to replace you as your saviour
when you are doing a fine job being one yourself.
This is amazing you’re a wonderfully deep gifted writer thank you for sharing.
Thank you for such kind words 🙂 Means a lot to hear that 🙂
You’re most welcome I enjoy your blog.☺️
I shall the sentiments of this poem deeply… I have been there with one scared to love, because the love would heal, but scared she would fail to return the love that would make a difference… I took it as rejection and my inability of being sufficient… awesomely framed in poetry
I am really touched to know that you found my work relatable
Means a lot to me
Thank you 😊
your most welcome… your work deserves an audience.
😀
I just love all of your poems Nayana..They are so much filled up with emotions.
That’s really means a lot to me. I am glad that you enjoy reading my poems.
Thanks a lot 😊