“Give you away” – Nayana Nair

I wonderif the roles I playare really what I want to be.Or is it too late? Are my roles,my not-so-temporary voicesalready doingthe dreaming and the wantingin my placefor me? I see you and utter “love me”without thinking twice.Even if you findsome love left in you to give up,I wonderis there any “me” left in metoContinue reading ““Give you away” – Nayana Nair”

“I love you (probably)” – Nayana Nair

I wish falling for you was easierbut it isn’t, it could never bethat is not how you like it-easy love goes only as far as thatand maybe that is why I loved you.Or maybe that’s what I tell myself.Everything I tell myself is a whisper, a secret from you.I tell myself stories of a ‘you’thatContinue reading ““I love you (probably)” – Nayana Nair”

“Pillar” – Nayana Nair

I do not know how to help you. I am used to relying on you,to make everything right. You are supposed to be the strongest one.Or were you always like this? Was your strength a make-belief, my excusefor not caring, for not doing anything. I do not know how to hold your handwhen you refuseContinue reading ““Pillar” – Nayana Nair”

Tailoring Myself

I was running from myself, trying to be someone different for each person of importance in my life, tailoring myself to their needs, choosing personas to inhabit and abandon, wearing masks that only obscured my own desires and the gravity of my choices. I was code-switching for the hell of it, without much purpose butContinue reading “Tailoring Myself”