“Melting a Rose” – Nayana Nair

… In rooms like thesemy hollowness becomes real. It becomes an ant that won’t stop walkingwith its tiny feet across the span of my hands,a felling that won’t rest. It feels like the rainthat falls and fills everything before me.Leaving me alone. Alone to think of you. And I.again I find in you a hope?aContinue reading ““Melting a Rose” – Nayana Nair”

The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 5)” – Nayana Nair

#enemy_of_hope On my way to you, there is a world that I must walk through. In the dense fog, through the things truer than us, the steps that I take are the heaviest, the decisions I make the most difficult. “Rows and flows of angel hairAnd ice cream castles in the airAnd feather canyons everyContinue reading “The Scale of 1 to 10 (part 5)” – Nayana Nair”

“What are we doing now?” – Nayana Nair

Another chanceto get our highfrom the powdered dust of dreams,from digging desperately, getting closer to the voiceof the demons we buried just yesterday,breaking nails and curfews tosave the skins we can’t live without. Another chanceat making a home,choosing colors for our ceilings,choosing the sides we will sleep on,choosing not to be the ones we haveContinue reading ““What are we doing now?” – Nayana Nair”

“Enough for me” – Nayana Nair

She climbed the stairsnever pausing for a second.I knew what a second of thought could do.How it could pull back her stepsand let out her screams.I knew this is something she didn’t need. She climbed the stairsand walked towards me.Beside me, not exactly near,steps away perhaps she stood.And that was enough for me. Enough forContinue reading ““Enough for me” – Nayana Nair”

“in the light that smiles nonetheless” – Nayana Nair

that’s where my anger lives on the mud stains of a size 7 shoesswimming on the white floor of my small apartment. in the plants uprooted, in the marigolds strewnand trampled on, in the light that smiles nonetheless. on the streets where lives my fear – that finds meand almost kills me, every time iContinue reading ““in the light that smiles nonetheless” – Nayana Nair”

“Waiting for the fireworks to end” – Nayana Nair

In her loudest, happiest voiceshe told me aboutone of her near-death loves,how she wished her skinwould stop keeping her alive.She laughed at how we bothalways find something awfully painful or ugly in common,how we should probably never call each otherjust to remind each other of the spitethat lives in our blood. I moved her lacklusterContinue reading ““Waiting for the fireworks to end” – Nayana Nair”

“make me a flower” – Nayana Nair

It snowed all night.All night I created stars for your eyes.I bore the weight of the roofas you slept, cried, ate,smiled, memorized dial tones,stared at me like you stare at screens with static,paused expectantly as you told me the storyabout your friend who is filled to brim with sugarand seems bit oddwhen he tries toContinue reading ““make me a flower” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember (28)” – Nayana Nair

As I grew up, whom I hate changed constantly, it changed more frequently than my dream for future roles. Maybe that’s why I was so particular about what I hate and I did it with fervor for the first few years. But as time went on that hatred turned into just another silence – myContinue reading ““What I Remember (28)” – Nayana Nair”

Vincent Ehindero Blogger Award

After a long long time, I am back with another award post.Roshni has nominated me for Vincent Ehindero Blogger Award. I am really thankful that she like my work and considered me worthy of mention on her blog. Means a lot. Here is the link to the award post by Roshni: Vincent Ehindero Blogger AwardContinue reading “Vincent Ehindero Blogger Award”

“Before we are set in stone” – Nayana Nair

She stood ten steps away from me.Smiling the sort of smileI thought I would never see again.The leaves and their shadows,the broken lightonly for us tonight.I remember the how I loved heras the wind rushes to hold her.She, the mast of our broken ship,asks me how I have been. My fingers that ache for hershideContinue reading ““Before we are set in stone” – Nayana Nair”