“Even when things are right” – Nayana Nair

“The sky is your canvas”,the book to all ailments said,“there is a joy in filling it up with life.”But as I finished my 157th sketch,as I finished my 300th one,as I finished the one with no count attached(the one I called “the limits that were stronger than me”),as I write over all that I hadContinue reading ““Even when things are right” – Nayana Nair”

“Virtual Image” – Nayana Nair

“the image in mirror is never formed“ I copied this slowlyfrom my friend’s notes,reading too much into it. I moved my handsover the new definition of real. I traced the lines, the dull path of lightas faithfully as I couldbut the solid blue lines of ink touch the glassand are broken cleanly by the lawsContinue reading ““Virtual Image” – Nayana Nair”

“and one day i stopped without wanting to” – Nayana Nair

i am a girl who reads too much between lines, especially yours.and your words, they were coldbut they were warmer than the pages they were written on.and since i wanted to love youi tried to see your world as one big adventureeven when my heart was filled with fear.i tried to do things that mightContinue reading ““and one day i stopped without wanting to” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember (18)” – Nayana Nair

today’s sadness is brought uponby the increasing count of the words that i have forbidden myself to speak. today’s sadness is brought upon by the particularly sad song that i have chosen to listen. today’s sadness is partially due to the strangers with sweet eyes,partially due to my angels with weak hearts,and also the factContinue reading ““What I Remember (18)” – Nayana Nair”

“What I Remember (15)” – Nayana Nair

I think of the clothes that are too tight or too loose for me,of my skin that doesn’t like me the way it used to.How the mirrors in my home are hidden by the growing towers of books.I wonder what this says about me?I think of the fear that I feel when I am alone,theContinue reading ““What I Remember (15)” – Nayana Nair”

“Childhood Photo” – Nayana Nair

i do not want to be a childwho thinks that the world is this windowwhere i wait for you to return.but i am. and you are also the one who has promised to never return.but you have made many promisesand you have broken so many of it.i guess i am counting on youto stay trueContinue reading ““Childhood Photo” – Nayana Nair”

“Short lived season of comfort” – Nayana Nair

Any seat that I was comfortable occupyingwas always unbearably cold.People were right when they saidthat something was not right with me.For my flesh wanted to become fresh snow,my bones the lone tree under which sat my soul-a child learning to countthe years of cold and whiteness,an innocent, forgetful, and aging brainliving in a worldwith noContinue reading ““Short lived season of comfort” – Nayana Nair”

“Frail Sheep” – Nayana Nair

I kept typingand just when I thoughtthis is it,this is what I want to say,140 characters were over,the day had ended,you had closed your eyes,and turned your face to other side. I told myself-‘tomorrow,tomorrow i will tell you everything,tomorrow we will be happy.you may not love me againafter i say all i need to say,butContinue reading ““Frail Sheep” – Nayana Nair”

“Keep me inside” – Nayana Nair

I can help you count everything you have. These objects have no meaning to me but I know something about life even if I don’t know everything. I know that your hands will stop shaking only if they keep counting, only when you have confirmed that you have not become poorer that you were aContinue reading ““Keep me inside” – Nayana Nair”

“Make this one mistake” – Nayana Nair

I want to love you with the sincerity that I don’t have.I want to want you desperately, even when I am fed up with you.I want to look at you as if you are my everythingeven when I know that you are not. – The only thing that stops me from being the love thatContinue reading ““Make this one mistake” – Nayana Nair”